I started eating normally again. I was worried about eating things and now "being picky" about food is getting worse. I made some wings from frozen. They said fully cooked on the box so basically you just have to heat them up right? I made them and they looked pink. Chicken should never be pink. So I didn't eat dinner. I'm starving myself now and its only going to get worse. I want to eat them, but I know if I do I will think about the fact that I ate them all night. I'm so hungry. I'm frustrated. I'm upset. And I just needed to vent about this.

I had some salad that I prepared myself. It's not enough. I can feel my stomach growling at me because I'm hungry. I tend to not eat full meals because feeling full is not a good feeling for me. I usually snack all day on different things. I'm not healthy. I'm not happy. I'm sad. I'm sad and I can't get over this stupid phobia. I'm sick of living like this.

Anyone with any suggestions, would be helpful.
Thank you for reading.

-Em