Heres My Story( IM NEW!)

[Miss Trombonist]

let me just start by saying that it is amazing that im not the only one who has a deadly fear of v*. I thought i was the only one!

I absolutly hate v*. if someone says that there going to be sick, i either rush out of the room, or plug my ears and shut my eyes and think of something else besides that, and if i think im going to be sick myself, i do everything to keep myself from not being sick. thats one of the problems i have now. for the past 3 weeks, i have had a constant stomach pain, to the point where i feel like im going to be sick. I went to the emergency room just today, and soon i hope to find out whats wrong with me. my first trip to the ER two weeks ago, there was this lady who just walked in. i over heard her daughter saying "Yeah, shes been V*ing" and i saw the doctor give the lady one of those pans. i went to the other side of the room with my mom, plugged my ears, and started humming. later on, when the lady was gone, a guy came in holding his stomach, and then sat down in a wheel chair with a pan and i immetly pluged my ears and closed my eyes and started humming. I have no clue why im afraid of v*, but its getting really bad now. Ever since school started, ive been parinoid about it. if i look at someone who coughs a certain way that it looks like they will throw up, i get freaked out.
and my problem now is that when i feel sick, i dont eat anything untill my stomach pain goes away, which is a big problem. I just hate v* lol

sorry for the long post lol
but that is my story!

[xinsidethefirex]

When someone says that then I completely freak out...cry, put my fingers in my ears and wiggle them so I can't hear! When I had to go to the hospital there was this little boy who had hit his head and was v*ing. I tried not to freak out as there were people around and I didn't want to draw attention to me. Luckily he didn't do it then but he did when he was in the room opposite. The sound was horrible but after a while I just felt bad for him and his parents. It's not like it was me doing it and it wasn't a bug. I felt kind of selfish! I avoid hospitals as much as possible. I don't know how the nurses cope!

Not eating will probably make you feel worse so be careful!

[Miss Trombonist]

yeah when i first went into the hospital, i had the worst panic attack. i had my fingers in my ears and i was crying. it was a little embarrasing :/

[olschesky]

welcome to the forum........hopefully you will find some help and comfort in here.....it's a great place with great, understanding people. it's just nice to have a place to go.....tell your feelings and not be judged.....

[kahlea89]

All I can say is wow! I'm also new here and everything you said I can relate to. If I were to see somone toss their cookies Lol hear it, or even if they say they feel like it, I'd have to run out the room or plug my ears and shut my eyes. I do the same when I feel sick. Most of the time when I get sick I'd cry. I feel so embarrassed because I had this fear eversince I was 8 (now I'm 21). I hate it when people shrugs what's the big deal. If only they knew. It's like living a nightmare. I even fear when cats and dogs do it. When I did my internship as a Dental Assistant I then knew that what I had was not a normal thing..It saddens me because I knew I could never become a nurse like my sister or mother (that was another profession I wanted to do). As of right now I'm happy with my job as a housekeeper. It keeps me away from my fear because I'm not in close contact with sick people. Thank you for reading this YOU ARE NOT ALONE

[mooki]

When I think back about my emet, the first instance I recall of terror of V is in 4th grade when a girl on the playground maybe 20ft from me stood up and got sick in front of everyone. I was in the middle of playing handball and when I saw this, I just bolted away to the other side of the playground in a fight or flight panic. I have no idea how the fear got instilled in me. I even remember the date. Janurary 28, 1986. I remember it because after I came back to class, the teacher announced that the space shuttle Challenger just exploded. I came home severely depressed that day both from what I witnessed the girl do and because of the space shuttle since I was a space enthusiast as a kid.

For you guys feeling awful about the fear, I want you to know there is hope and there's no reason it has to be this way forever. While I still am an emet, I've come a long way. Seeing v on the ground or even seeing someone doing it doesn't make my heart start racing anymore. I mean don't get me wrong, I hate seeing it and would prefer to look at a flowers than V, but the fight or flight shot of adrenaline I used to get when seeing it doesn't happen anymore. I admit though I am still really disturbed by the retching noises. That still gets to me. Some people actually have silent Vs by the way. I've seen this. And then some people you can hear from a block away. Earlier this year I was walking at night down a busy street and all of a sudden I hear a splashing noise, I look up and a guy is holding his head out the window as the car is turning the corner and puking. I had no reaction. I didn't feel tense, or have an increase in heartbeat or even feel all that grossed out. I just looked up for a second, and once the car passed me, just kept on about my business. So I've come a long way in my reaction to it thank God. When you feel down and out, just remember some of the success stories on the forum and some of us who have the worse days behind us. You CAN lessen your fear of it over time.

[hairyfairy]

I can feel myself starting to freak whenever I read in the papers, or see on tv that there`s been an outbreak of the norovirus somewhere. I`m already stockpiling anti-emets like pepto-bismol,& motillium, & it`s only October.

[Miss Trombonist]

i think my emet started when i like, 5 and i was at my step dads friends house, and his son was not feeling good that day. well i saw him go in the kitchen and drink a huge glass of kool aid, and i was sitting on the couch. 20 minutes later he walks into the kitchen and says im not feeling good, and right after that, he got violently ill. i started screaming and crying that instant, and i was probably a good 10 ft away from him. after that, 10 minutes later, he comes back into the kitchen and gets sick again. i acted the same way as before, and all i wanted was to go outside away from him, but since it was very dark outside my mom wouldnt let me go. i was crying so badly in my moms lap and then it was time for me to go. by then the kid was asleep, but when i went into hims room he woke up and ran to the kitchen again. i was flipping out and i grabbed my stuff out of his room, and all of a sudden i see his mom drag him to the bathroom, which was right across his room, to get sick. i rushed out of his room, grabbed my mom, and ran out of the house.
it was horrible.. and i think that is where it all started.

its really good to let out all of this. i feel way better about my fear now since i know that im not the only one whos afraid of v*. its awesome to just talk about it... most of my friends dont understand, and make fun of me by making gagging sounds or acting like there going to v*... it sucks.... even my step brother and step sister does it. sometimes i wish there were me while someone v* infront of them just once to see how it is for them..
im really glad this web site exists!

[musicXfashionXsugar]

I can totally feel what you're saying. When I went to the ER for my panic attacks a woman started V*ing and I started crying 'oh God please help her' in front of everyone. SO embarrassing. I just want to get over this phobia so I can eat sushi again. I love sushi. lol

[Miss Trombonist]

yeahh i was happy that the last two visits were late at night and no body was there

[abbu]

welcome

[ginger_pie]

My emet started when i was in grade two, there was a boy in my class who had a severe stomach ilniss and would *V EVERYDAY at school and his mom didnt do anything about it! I am not joking for the whole year he would get sick after lunch time and after gym class. It was horrible and as a little kid it was so scarey for me.

[hairyfairy]

I have been offered a job as a cleaner at my local hospital a couple of times in the past 2 years, but I know that I just couldn`t handle it when the Norovirus is about. Can you imagine what it would be like, all those sick people, & being in constant terror of catching it. Being unemployed is no picnic, but I`d rather stay on the dole than have to deal with that!

[PearlescentAngel]

Guhhh I know how you feel with the emergency room...I had to take a friend there a couple years ago because he had a massive fever associated with tonsillitis. That was fine, oh yeah okay tonsillitis....however, since I was the only one who could take him I got to go sit in the ER for 3 hours. There was a little girl in there who had gone in with her mom because she had been v*ing for several hours. She had one of those big kitchen bowls with her. I stared at her with my sweater over my face until she left. She never did end up getting sick though, but I continued to hyperventilate for four days.

I've gotten way better, but the ER is something I'm not sure I'm ever going to be able to do, even if I ever cure my phobia. You're way stronger than I am. I'd rather wait 3 months to see my GP than go to the ER again. The ER is a generally frightening place for a lot of people, not just emets. We live in a pretty germophobic society as it is.

I really hope you can figure out what it is that is making you feel so ill. Hopefully it is just stress that can be managed, and there are a lot of books you can read and things you can take (not just pharmaceutical drugs) that will assist in lessening the severity of the stress so you don't hurt anymore.

[Miss Trombonist]

thanks guys C: i feel alot better about my fear.
unfourtunetly, the goctors have not been able to find out whats wrong.. but i go to a GI doctor on the 18th, so im happy