I'm 17 and my name is Verity.
I have had emetophobia ever since I was 6. Since then, I have had about 4 terrible relapses of mental illness in my life. THe first one was when I was in year 5 at Primary school. I stopped eating due to gagging everytime i put something in my mouth and became a tiny 3 stone. I was nearly hospitalized but MADE myself eat and got better. Then In year 8 at High School it all came flooding back again. Panic attacks as well this time... Then I got better (when i say better, its never gone away, ive just learnt to cope somewhat) and became mentally ill in year 11 and was put on Prozac. It was the worst time of my life. I wanted to kill myself... MY days consisted of constant panic attacks which brought me to the point of gagging. I finally got better ish. I think the prozac helped. But I got ill again about 6 months later! I'm back here AGAIN.Depressed, anxious, panic attacks. I just feel like this is never going to go... can I get better?
Im going to see a hypnotherapist and psychiatrist. I have doubled my dose of prozac, ive been on that for about 2 weeks, not sure how long it takes for the double dose to kick in?
I also have beta-blockers but they dont really help.

Im so terrfied of panic attacks... I think they will make me vomit. They never have (touch wood) but i feel like im going to be sick and gag quite often in them.


I drove myself to my local mental institution the other day, all the said was "go to your GP".
Which i have already done.

Any help advice? can i get better again? or is the prozac not working anymore... i still got ill on it..