Hello everyone,

I only found this website a couple of days ago, and only recently discovered there was an actual term for the fear of v*. It's nice to know I'm not alone with my fear. I do have other fears and I also suffer from depression and anxiety, but my fear of v* far outweighs any other fear of mine.

I haven't been sick since 1986 but whenever I see v* I almost freeze with fear. In fact, one time when I was in Melbourne my brother wanted to go into the underground subway instead of crossing the road to get to the train station. We went to the steps (must have been about twenty), and right down at the foot of the steps I could see v*. I tried to ignore it but I knew that it would be coming closer to me as I kept on going down the steps. After the second or third step my brain refused to tell my legs to move and I had to tell my brother that I couldn't go down.

My main fear is the feeling that I remember just before I was sick. I always felt better after I was sick, but I'm petrified of the act itself. When I think I might be sick, I start trembling and am really scared, but so far I haven't actually been sick for quite some time. In 1997 on the way to the train station I thought I was about to be sick but I was having an asthma attack instead. I took a breath in and suddenly couldn't breathe out. I felt like I was choking and looking back I guess that was a LOT worse than being sick. It happened twice and then I managed to calm down enough to make it to the train station without any more problems.

I often have dreams where people are being sick. I remember one particular nightmare where I was at the train station and there was v* EVERYWHERE. It's not so bad if you just have to go past it quickly and then it's gone, but in my nightmare I couldn't get away from it. It was all over the place. Thankfully that nightmare has never come true. As I've said in another post I'm almost over my fear of cat sick because I have a cat myself, but even though I on anti-depressants for depression and anxiety, I think my fear of people sick will take longer to overcome. I do see a psychologist though, and I also have a referral to see a psychiatrist but I haven't called them yet. The psychologist appointments are free but I can only see her a maximum of ten times a year.

Anyway, I'm glad I found this website and hopefully I may gradually get better through therapy.