So i had a huuuuuge!!! turn lastnight.

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That is your life, and how much of your time are you spending on worrying about being sick. Being sick, is such a teeny weeny part of your life.

- Heres another thing, people with cancer.. dealing with Chemo? Their feeling sick, and being violently sick every single day.. they'd give anything to not have cancer, and just feel sick for a day, or have a tummy bug or something.
For me, my grandads both dyed of cancer. And right now my boyfriends nan has Lukemima, and hearing him talk about how poorly she is, makes me thing how lucky i am not to feel how poorly she does on a daily basis. And not know if its all going to be worth it.
That really made me think differently.

- One last one, i had a very very very very horrible nightmare lastnight! I woke up crying!
My dad had left my family, and the my boyfriend left for travelling and told me i'd never see him again.
This dream was sooooo powerful, i felt emotions, i could feel my stomach, i could feel the emptyness. I could feel everything. It was almost real, and the one thing that wasnt on my mind. BEING SICK! It was the last thing on my mind. I was more determind to find out where my dad and my boyfriend had gone, i was really feeling alone.. i woke up and the first thing i did was text my boyfriend and told him how much i loved him. Then gave my dad a cuddle.
I didnt think once about being ill. Which is what i usually do.. this made me realise how much more to life there is than being sick.
It really changed me, its incrediable how much its had an effect on me.

Really think about yourself and others around you, it may really help you. It has for me today, think how lucky you are to be you and how your blessed with life and health.

Now ofc this hasnt cured me, i'm still worried about being sick.. but today is definalty one of my good days.

I hope this helps guys..

L. Xx