Hi I am new to the site and am so pleased to have found that I can get help for what is wrong with me. Yet again today I have spent the day sat at home too scared to go out incase I v. My bf was ill 2 days ago and since then I have been terrified I have caught it. I have not eaten any proper meals and keep having to go to bed and sleeping cos it's all I can think about and I am making myself feel ill worrying. I feel really selfish and guilty as I was unable to look after him
I am sure that people at work think I have anorexia as I very rarely eat at lunch time because I am worried I will get ill. I can't enjoy nights out with my friends as I spend the few days before I go out worrying I will get ill and I very rarely drink ( everyone else seems to drink when out so I don't seem to fit in and so am getting invited out less and less). I struggle to eat in places I have not eaten in before and cut up every piece of chicken to check it is cooked.
I am feeling like I should just move back in with my parents as I drive my bf mad making him wash his hands and constantly fussing a bout use by dates and if chicken is cooked properly and going to bed early all the time because I have made myself feel ill with worrying. I don't think he understands and I have not even told him I do not think I'll ever be able to have children because of morning sickness and them catching bugs. Where is the best place to start getting help because this is ruining my life