I would have posted this sooner, but my internet stopped working for a day.

Two days ago, I had a serious chat with my mum, and realised a LOT of things. For example, I have been alive for 5 billion minutes, and have probably spent 3 of them physically v****ing. As well as lots of other things.

Last night, I knew that I was never ever going to be scared of v****ing ever again. Before I fell asleep, I remember thinking of a room full of blank canvases, ready to re-start my life in a way where I wasn't scared of this STUPID fear.

Today I've had two triumphs. I agreed to go to a theatre on friday with my friend, and i'll go, why not, I'm not scared anymore..
AND I ate a slice of apple pie and ice cream at a resteraunt today. I'm fine, and though my apple pie had tasted slightly iffy, I ate it anyway and, well, I'm hungry now

I have to write this, you can totally ignore it if you want:

I'M NOT SCARED OF BEING SICK! I'M NOT SCARED ANYMORE AND IM NOT GOING TO STOP DOING ANYTHING EVER, I HAVE SO MUCH TO DO IM ONLY 13 AND IM NOT GOING TO LET THIS RUIN MY LIFE, NOT EVEN FOR A LITTLE WHILE. I'M NOT SCARED. I'M NOT SCARED. F*** BEING SICK BECAUSE I DON'T CARE!

I feel much better now ;P
If anyone else wants to shout something, feel free, it helps. I'm going back to school in January just like everyone else. Fresh start. New me. Not scared anymore xx

-Claire