Hi,
I am new to this site and looking for help, guidance and any possible help I can get!
I have only suffered for the last 3 years to a degree which has turned my life upside down. Before I was afraid of others being sick (can't use the V word).
I have a great GP who has tried me on many meds for sickness and anxiety. I have also suffered with IBS (or have I? Maybe it's always been my anxiety?) since early teens - I am now 32. I have been on and off anti d's since I was 11.

I have paid for a very expensive course of hypnotherapy which ended in a non result. I had a screwed up child hood and part of my brain has blanked it out, I can remember very very little of life pre 20. Anyway, hypno could not get past this solid wall I have up so was no use.

I have had a year of CBT which was good at the time, the sessions were tough going but made me look at the fear in a new light.

So, I'm here asking for any tips or advice. I have 3 small children, a 5yr boy and twins who are 2. If it was not for them I would not still be here.

As with most, very few people know of my fears. I could probably rob a bank and get away with it they way I cover things up.

Here are a few of my issues -

Can only be driver in car - uncomfortable with other in car as they make me feel trapped.
Never be the driver with people who’ve been drinking
Pubs/clubs – no go zone
Huge fear - People seeing me be sick
Huge fear - People seeing my children be sick – if I am preset
People knowing of sickness in my family
One drink only – too many = sickness
Social events/crowding - cannot do at all
Can't sit at table to eat, unless my house and nobody else present.
Check all sell by dates
Will not fly/trains/boats
No fairground rides
Cinema/theatre – cannot do
Pavement – obsess sick
Water/chewing gum needed
Car stopped side of road – must be sickness
Being trapped –even walking on school run or in playground
Needing to be in total control
Winter vomiting bug – horrendous
Close guarded secret
Unable to visit friends houses
Hygiene, washing hands, cooking meat
Only safe at home, threatened when people visit
Waiting rooms Dr’s - sit furthest away
Heat of the class room spread germs, swimming pool

These are just a few thoughts in my head. Basically, I am petrified of being in a situation where I become trapped, if trapped I fear I will be sick. Trapped for me could being in a 2 acre field but if there are people around to see me be sick I am trapped, however big the space. I always need fast exit routes.

I think I have rambled plenty! Sorry to anyone who is still awake.
Even writing on here is a bit of a release in itself.