Hi;

My name's Kailyn, & I'm twelve, yeah, twelve, I know I probably shouldn't be on here, but it's extremely comforting to know that I'm not alone. Although I don't wish emetophobia on anybody of course!

I've dealt with emetophobia for as long as I can remember. I don't know what exactly triggered it. I think it was one weekend when my whole entire family got sick (won't go into more detail,) when I was about three. From then on, I've been deathly afraid of the v word. It's funny, because I've only ever been sick once or twice in my young years, but I sure feel sick a lot (doesn't help that I'm sensitive to lactose & gluten, therefore a certain food can cause me to feel bad & trigger anxiety... & anxiety disorders run in my family!).

Recently, it's gotten bad, really bad. Before I wasn't as panicky about it, & I didn't suffer from anxiety so when I felt sick I mostly just winced in pain but I was also afraid. But this past summer, I started noticing more symptoms, like rapid breathing, tingling hands & feet, dizziness, trembling, etc... & then I realized it was the anxiety hitting me as my whole entire family suffers from it (my brother is on the highest dose of Effexor!).

It's really, really hard as you all would know. Lately I've missed a lot of school because I'm so afraid to either start feeling sick during class & make a fool out of myself, or witness someone being sick.

I recently got a concussion, so I've been sitting out of gym class. I've been observing instead. We're doing a fitness unit (I'm in seventh grade,) & so everyones getting all worked up etc... so afterward, this one kid starts to cough, a lot, & I started FREAKING out! I'm trembling, I'm feeling sick myself because I'm worrying so much, & every time he coughed I just feared for my life. Eventually I had to leave, I complained that my head hurt too much to be in the gym so I went to the library, it was horrible.

My anxiety & fear is so bad, my therapist wants me to take something (medication of some sort,) but my mom refuses. She refuses to have me take daily medication, as I've already been prescribed Ativan (you take it when you're feeling anxious,) & she's already against that.

It just keeps getting worse & worse; I'm worrying about worrying! I'm sure you all know what this is like.

Before I finally Googled "Fear of vomiting" I didn't know this phobia existed. I thought I was some freak who had this abnormal fear. Like I said it's a little comforting to know that I'm not alone in this.

See ya around