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[sodone]

It is 2 days till Christmas and I have found that I seem to have alot of trouble with special occasions such as parties , weddings , holidays etc , where there seems to be alot of pressure on one particular day. I struggle I think because of my fear that I may not feel good or 'right" on the day of and therefore will ruin it for myself and everyone else. Mostly for myself I guess since I am the master of disguise it seems. But worse yet.....I fear feeling sick, and then I end up feeling gross due to the anxiety of the whole thing which gets the gears going big time! Or I end up being OVERLY cautious about what I eat, how much and then still not enjoying myself to the fullest.

I'm SO frustrated because I have been through this before and I got over it! I was fine and living a normal happy life, and the fact that it's back is making me crazy, I feel so defeated.

I feel great right now, I have NO reason at all to believe that I will get a s.v. in the next couple of days but there is that little monster in my brain that says there's still time! It could still happen!! I keep trying to tell myself that it WILL NOT happen and if it did I will survive and worst case senerio I can take something !....the inner struggle is exhausting, I wish I could just enjoy the holidays I am so gratefull I have all of you to relate to.

[abbu]

I am exactly the same! I feel sick every Christmas without fail. It's really sad because it's my favourite time of year... I don't know what to suggest except to keep busy, and just remember that there's no reason for why you should be ill. I wish I could be of more help, just letting you know you aren't alone. xoxo

[KaydeeJayde]

I always just try and say out loud to myself while doing some deep breathing, "Everything is going to be okay!" Try to focus on how much fun you're going to have (providing that it's going to be fun, that is :P) and that Christmas is a time for love, and support, and that even if you do end up unwell on Christmas day (which is highly unlikely, given that you're feeling great right now!) you'll have people around you to support you. :-)

[olschesky]

i'm the same way.....i've always done better doing things spur of the moment. planned dinners, parties, dates, etc tend to make me anxious.......but i also find that if i just get ready and go once i'm there i'm fine.....

enjoy your holidays

[sodone]

Thank you!!! I love the support from everyone, it really does make it easier I think as far as special occasions it's not even so much about whether I would feel ill as it is the absolute fear of anyone who doesn't know my phobia seeing me lose control or have an anxiety attack and not understand what is happening to me , along with the fear of v. itself, it sort of compounds into this mess of anxiety, and nobody wants to try to explain emetophobia mid-panic attack ! And of course there's tons of people who also don't even understand THAT part of it, have never had a panic attack in their lives...I envy them