So a couple of weeks ago I started recovering from this phobia. I was myself again; pigging out on food, staying up all night with my friends, not worrying. Until one of my friends got hit with the stomach flu, now I've been on edge ever since. I'm slowly coming back down to earth though, and tomorrow I'm seeing a GI doctor for the first time who will finally give me answers on besides anxiety and lactose intolerance, what's going on in my stomach! There's obviously something whether it's IBS or whatever, and it's causing me a lot of pain and a lot of tears.

As for food... before I was reluctant to pig out. I was afraid of the consequences of eating "junk" food, and big meals. Thankfully that part has faded, now I'm back to eating normally whenever I feel like, and fair sized meals that will keep me healthy and energized throughout the day. I can already feel the difference to be honest. I'm tired because I've stayed home all week due to migraines and cramps but otherwise I feel a lot better now that I've started eating somewhat normally again and not being afraid.

I hope I'm on my way to recovery, because right now that's all I really pray for, is recovery and stability.

Oh and I'm back to spending the time with my friends that I missed out on due to the phobia. One time I had to leave the mall because I was so afraid of catching something, but now I prance around the mall like I own it again and try on every piece of "fashionable" clothing I can find! I just make sure to wash my hands after!

I'm slowly realizing that it's still okay to be human as long as you keep up good hygiene, get the right amount of sleep, and eat properly. Avoiding things won't make you less likely to contract stomach flu's, the way to avoid stomach flu's is like I said, excellent hygiene, good sleep, diet, and keep away from people with stomach flu's!