New and very scared

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im 17 and need help trying to get through this. I only use to be afraid when i was at school but now it has gotten worse. the stomach flu is going around and i think thats what sparked the fear even further.

Im starting to get paranoid at home. i wash my hands like every ten minutes and they are bleeding. My parents are out all the time and when they come home i worry they might have the virus on them. So when they hug me i freak out, change clothes, and hide in my room. and now my little sister who has six started school for the first time ever and no i cant even go near her because kids spread germs like wildfire cause they never wash their hands.

Before i use to just have panic attacks about being trapped in a room so my mom only has me in 3 classes at school but now since this stomach flu spark, im afraid to go to my three classes.

The worst part is im deathly afraid to be around my boyfriend now! he wants to come over but i tell him no.

I cant sleep at night either or eat. I only sleep for 3 hours at night because my stomach aches and stings the worst at night. I feel nauseous all the time and i cant eat but im starving. Ive lost 20 pounds in a month! I try so hard to eat but i cant even look at food. Im on medication, i go to a therapist, i do breathing exercises, but the pain in my stomach wont go away.

I just need advice and help. my parents use to care but now they dont. they make fun of me and call me an energy vampire because i suck the life out of them and they are both doctors!

My life is just ruined. I use to not be afraid and was out all the time and has tons of friends but now im afraid to leave my room..

(Im sorry this is so long)

[Jon]

Hey, I know how you feel. I panic at the slightest bit of Nausea. This past Summer my entire family caught a stomach virus, and I was the only one to not be sick. If there's a stomach virus going around I usually will use hand sanitizer every ten mins. I'm very paranoid about catching something. But I seriously doubt that you will catch it. And I know how you feel about being in school. I have Panic attacks when I go, and I'll do ANYTHING to get out of class. But I try to remember that the fear is all in my mind. And that's VERY difficult. But you can make it through.
Best Wishes.