This fear is consuming my life. Im in constant panic mood all the time. When I went out to the movies last night with my mom I could not pay attention to half of the movie. I kept shifting and felt really n*. Even right now i feel a tickle and lump in my throat and I keep gagging. I cant sleep at all at night. I wake up feeling super n* and sick to my stomach and I think its sv* and i panic. I spend my afternoons in constant worry about avoiding germs and what i touch. Before bed I worry about having sv* and not even knowing it and v* at school the next day. When one of my friends tells me their stomach hurts I freak out. I feel like im next in line. Im so afraid to leave my house and I have to go to school.

Im only 18 and i already hate life. thats not right. I feel so out of control. my fear is getting worse each day even when i tell myself im okay..im scared to death.