I have been shy all my life, I find it very difficult to have a conversation with new people. I don't have many friends and I like keeping to myself. I am happiest alone...sadly. I am afraid I will die old and lonely because I don't allow anyone in my life. Some times I feel what's the point in having friends if I can't be brave and go out with them. I blame this stupid phobia for the most part because I get scared of embarrassing myself and nobody will want to hang around a Debbie Downer. I find it uncomfortable to walk towards another person and have to give eye contact and a "hello" and smile. I usually look a different direction or look down. I don't even feel beautiful anymore. I been through a bad relationship in the past where I was physically assaulted and told I would never be somebody. I have never been able to shake my insecurity and find a happy place in life. I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin...this is not who I am. Anyone else out there like this...or are you a happy person and love to be outgoing and social? What is your personality like?