I'm not afraid of V*, but I'm affraid of the build up to it?

[Jon]

I don't think I'm scared to actually V*, I'm scared of the feeling I get before it happens. I don't like feeling out of control. I feel like I'm going to die. But when I'm doing it I actually calm down. I V* for the first time in 5 years in Feb 2010. When it happend I had a Panic Attack leading up to it, and I felt out of control, almost like there was no turning back. But when it was done I was calm and relaxed.. I don't know what I'm scared of...
Does anyone else feel like this?

[Jen06]

I most definitely do! Once I'm actually doing 'it,' I'm okay. It's the lead-up to that sends me over the edge. I can't stand that kind of nausea. It's awful. After more than 3 or 4 hours of fighting it, I'm ready to give in because I can't take it anymore.

[iNurtureTheOdd]

I think this is a very normal reaction. The lead-up is the worst, once you do it, you feel so much better. My doctor told me it's because when we vomit, endorphines (the feel good hormones) are released into our bodies.

[Jen06]

Ahhhh, very interesting. Probably why we feel the relief we do when it's all over with... especially if we've felt sick for quite some time before we actually vomit...