Biggest breakthrough in awhile!!!

[person54321]

So I spent some time in my parents house, where I grew up and am generally comfortable since I thought it would help my emet. I was right. I went out to eat tonight and ate the shared bread (everyone was touching it with their fingers and just ripping bits off so everyone touched the places I ate from), I used my fork even though the waitress put a menu on it, I ate calimari with my fingers, oh and I didn't wash my hands before eating even though I touched the doorknob and the menu first. Yay! I feel great about it! Though honestly being on this website is making me feel super nauseous. Weird. I even just tried to swallow something and gagged on it for some weird reason and I don't feel nervous about it. Yay for making progress!

[KaydeeJayde]

Congratulations! That's awesome progress! Are you proud of yourself? You should be!!

[person54321]

Yes! :-D I feel much freer. Hopefully this lasts. I woke up in the middle of the night with stomach pains and rather than panicking reminded myself that I ate a TON of bread and I was probably just gassy (tmi?). Though last night while I was sleeping I had a dream about being trapped on a bus with someone who had a sv... hmmm...