I have been an emet for a very long time. I hate when I have to be around co-workers who are/were sick and it is pure torture when my boyfriend gets sick from either sv or fp.
The other day a student v'd in the classroom. I was not even near her and did not have to clean it up or even look at it, but I felt like it was all over me. I also felt like it was all over the room.
Anytime my bf says his stomach is upset I ask him every 5 mins if he feels like he is going to throw up. If he is sick from a sv or fp, I can't sleep for fear he will v and I will hear it. He will move in the bed and I will jolt awake and my heart will race. It is pure torture.
My stress level goes through the roof if I am planning a trip or going out of town. I get so worried I will catch something and have to feel sick on the road or when I am visiting family. I also fear getting sick will ruin the plans I make, like visiting family or going on trips. If I have nothing going on, I am not as stressed. Still, I try never to touch my face and I use enough hand sanitizer for 10 people.
This stress is eating away at my life. My fear of getting sick is ruining the days I am not sick. I have no v'd in about 5 years. My bf has been sick with a sv twice since then and I didn't catch it from him. I think it is pure luck and lots of Lysol spray, but I fear I will soon not be so lucky and I will eventually succumb to illness.
I guess I just need to vent...