Am I the only one who does this? As I lay here reading posts, I think to myself "if I v* it wouldn't be that big of a deal. I'm an adult and it's not the end of the world, duh!" But faced with the possibility of it, I freak! I hate it! I convince myself that I would totally be ok if I did. And I even picture myself doing it and imagine what I would look like and what it would feel like and I don't panic while thinking this. But as soon as something happens, like what happened the other night (see my post called omg I accidentally touched puke!) I panic. Ughhhh I hate this so much!!!!
I do have to say though, when I was faced with a very very realy possibility of v* when I was having my c section, I was pretty calm. I was thinking about it, but I didn't freak out. Maybe because I was drugged? I don't know, do they give you drugs other than the epidural? Lol I don't even know. But yeah after 32 hours of labor, the pain I was in was way way way way worse than v*. Honestly.