so i've been thinking lately about starting to date again. my oldest is 18 and will graduate in a few weeks and go off to college in a few months. my other two are not too far behind. and my single-parenting days are drawing to a close.....

but...i start thinking about the last relationship i was in 9 years ago....my emet was SO bad.....i had lost so much weight b/c i couldn't eat in front of him for fear of getting sick...i was always n*....we never got to go anywhere, we always stayed home....needless to say he couldn't deal and we broke up....

so.... i don't want to be alone forever... my emet is not really bad now...i mean i go out to eat, although i do only eat certain things that are "safe" for me so as not to bring on an attack of ibs,i've put on weight (too much in my opinion haha), i work, i go places.

i still obsess about v*, esp. others, where you can't control anything ( i've come to learn i am a control freak hehe) i think of the "what if" scenarios, i mentally plan escape routes whenever i go out , i make sure i know where the bathroom or trashcans are located....all the emet usuals...sadly

sorry my post is so long....need some input on how to "get on with it" and start dating again....