I am now thirty and have been terrified of being sick since I was very young, been for many sessions to try and work out the root of my problem. It frustrates me that I can not work out why this started but also kind of fed up trying to figure out when and where it all began and just want to be over it. I have tried CBT, Self Help and recently Hypnotherapy and I still have the fear. I do not know what to do now. I have made some progress throughout the years I think it is a maturity thing rather than anything else.

I can now:
watch other people v
look after a sick child albeit still with a little trepidation

I now know:
V*ing won't kill me

I however still have a number of issues and would appreciate any comments or feedback:

I have terrible panic attacks if I think I am going to be sick I can almost feel the fear rising from the pit of my stomach all the way upto my neck. I start to pace the floor, I bite my hand to distract my body from actually being sick or more recently I have been scratching my forearm and leaving myself with deep cuts in my arms, I also open a window so that I begin to shiver again with the intention of distracting my brain from the v* that needs to escape my body. Does anyone else use this distraction method and have you found a way to stop harming yourself?

I had not been sick for 15 years until I overindulged in alcohol at a hen party one year in Spain, I was away from home and was ill the next day in my appartment, thankfully my friends went out and did not see me pacing the floor and panicing like a complete looney. The second time I was sick was on honeymoon and this was sea sickness when I had to v* infront of a whole boat full of people I felt horrendous but again it did not kill me so why on earth do I get in such a state about it.

I hate feeling like this, I am mortified by the marks I leave on my arm and hand and I am of the age where pregnancy is very high on my agenda but I fear that so much because of the phobia.

Not sure what to do or where to go now. Please help x