So, I just broke up with my boyfriend of almost a year. It was basically mutual. I had no romantic feelings left for him (and he could tell). I didn't get those butterflies, or excited to see him, or feel all giddy. I pretty much saw him as a friend and it wasn't fair to him. However, he accepted my emet. I was so hesitant to break up with him just for that reason. I'm so afraid I won't find someone who accepts my emet and who gives me those butterflies and makes me feel on fire. And I don't want to be with someone who doesn't make me feel that way, so I will just be alone forever with 30 cats.

I'm fine being single now since I'm only 21, but I would rather not be forever.

How do you tell new guys you are seeing or dating that you have emet and when do you do it? I used to wait a long time, but I am pretty open about it now. I usually mention it casually early on and then as things progress I will really explain just how serious of a fear it is.

Oh and I had Bdubs for the first time today. My IBS was NOT happy. I managed to stay composed on the 45 minuet car ride home though. Pretty proud about that.