Probably this isn't interesting at all and I am sorry for sharing.

Sometimes I think my fear is feeling extreme nausea, more than the v* itself, because most of the times v* saves us of being sick (but I am not sure, since it was a long time ago it happened for the last time..) .
Other times, even the word v* scares me.
But the worst part and I think we all agree is the fact we can't control it! like..if I felt sick and v* and felt good again, it wouldn't be that bad..but most of the times we woke up feeling extremly weak and n* and then we have some d* and THEN after some painful hours we finnally do it! :|other times I listen to people saying ''GOSH, I v* for 4 days!'', which means, it doesnt happen once or twice but lots of times!
I know it is not like those all the times.
Well..I think this phobia started because I rarely v*.The times I did it, I felt really bad, for many hours, because my body only throws up as a last resource, so I suffer from nausea for too long and (I'm sorry for the words) I used to have some dried vomits instead of actual v*...and when i think about it and how scary it is I freak out....

Sometimes I just wish I was like my bf. When he feels extremly sick and n* , he uses the fingers tecnique, after awhile he's feeling new and calm.
SO...My fears are: not being able to control the v* and knowing it can happen more than once or twice (and for more than one day).
other thing is to know, if I felt n* or caught s stomach bug, I would take too long to actually do it! which makes it looks like HELL to me.


I have no idea if my english is understandable. I am sorry. I am from Portugal.