So I'm new to this site. I used to be a member of a similar site, but I believe it got shut down. I'm a senior in college, and I just want to be able to live my life without constant fear and worry, but any time that I make progress in my recovery, I get ill and go back to the beginning. I've been dealing with this fear since I was about 8, and it's miserable. I'm on anxiety medication, however it doesn't always seem to work . With this debilitating fear, I've also developed depression. I oftentimes think, "when will this end? will i have to live like this forever? will i ever be NORMAL?"

I just don't know what to do. I'm so tired of feeling sick, and I'm so tired of spending countless nights wide awake, terrified, with a stomach ache.

To those reading this, do you feel the same way? How do you cope with your fears, and how do you feel better when you feel ill?