These past couple of weeks have been unbearable. I had a panic attack at work. I thought I heard my supervisor say her daughter was sick, and I worried about her catching it and spreading it around work again. Now everyone knows my "secret." Following that, I became even more restrictive with my diet. Anything that has just come into the house and hasn't been "tested" first is "dangerous." I can hardly make myself eat now.

Today I'm in a state of depression. I don't know if it's malnutrition, time of the month, stress, or all of it. Whatever it is, I feel miserable. To make matters worse, my sister has been an absolute jerk to me today, making me believe even more that I have no family support.

There is one woman at work who's latched onto me and is determine to help me get better. I really appreciate her for it, but she's rushing me a little and I feel overwhelmed. I don't have the courage to her that.

This is wrecking my life. I want to be normal again!