Hey everyone, I'm fairly new here (I've visited the site before but have never posted). Tonight I'm laying awake just thinking of all the situations I can possibly be ill. This is honestly starting to take over my life and I don't know what to do.

Since I was in second grade (I am 20 now) I have known I wanted to be a teacher, I'm now in school working to be a kindergarten teacher and I currently have a summer job at a pre-school. I bet you can tell what my problem is =/. I went into work the other day to have the teachers tell me all about how they get sick a lot....and they were very specific about what type of sickness =/. I love this job so much but after hearing that I was frozen with fear the rest of the day, I came home upset, and now I dread going back. I'm really upset that this fear is stopping me from doing what I love by making it less enjoyable.

My parents and boyfriend are really understanding, but they still don't know the half of it. I literally think every single day about this, and I also think so much about how much I'm going to hate winter time, because people will be sick in the dorms. This fear is slowly but surely taking over me.

I see a school counselor during the school year, but it's summer now and I have nobody to talk to about this who can really give an expert opinion and truly calm me down =(.


Thanks for listening everyone. Can anyone else relate to this situation? Does anyone else dread the winter time?