feelin’ like a loser

[SimplyMe]

OK..so I woke up this morning and everything was OK, then I felt sick for a bit then I had to use the bathroom more than normal (wasn't diarrhea or anything just more than usual) and my period was due yesterday. OK so I go to school this morning and got out after my normal 3 hours and came homehad lunch but was feeling off since this morning off and on. So I was supposed to work for an hour and half this afternoon (I work for the school I go to and today was supposed to be a different one than my classes were at today but I do have a class there too sorry this is irrelevant) anyways I didn't go. To make a long story short. I was hungry when I got home I ate I felt pretty OK, was gonna go and then I just couldn't. I started feeling kinda yucky but also I was getting a headache and sinus stuff. Plus I felt warm (I ws thinking feverish but I think it's cuz I had the house closed up and it's 80 outside and I didn't have the air on I knwo that's just what you guys in cold areas want to hear right?) So I rationalized that it was OK to miss because of this stuff and a whole buttload of school work that I need to get done. Do you guys ever do this, like not do something your supposed to do or even want to do and feel part of its emet. I mean I know my coming period has a lot to do w/ how i feel which is why I hate the stupid thing! I just feel like I let myself and everyone else down and I feel guilty!

[cat283]

I feel EXACTLY the same way.I was due today and haven't gotten mine yet, and it is SO ANNOYING. I freak myself out so needlessly this time of the month!

[rock_on]

Wow, that sounds so much like what I do. Could the crappiness be related
to allergies? It could even just be your oncoming period that's making you
feel crappy, I know I always feel horrible and sick when mine comes.
I've done the same thing so many times (not going somewhere or doing
something important cause of emet) and I HATE that guilty feeling. It's
the worst. What makes me feel better is working extra hard the next day,
getting everything done, if you don't normally workout, you could go for
a jog, etc. Anyways, hope you feel better! *hugs*
(And I envy your weather!)

[2jo2]

Don't feel like a loser!! I do the same thing, only mine is because of my emet and all the germs everywhere, alot to do with my OCD and the contamination issue. So I don't go out after work when people stop for a drink, I don't accept invitations out to lunch, etc. and feel like people will think I'm stuck up or something but it's all because of this stupid phobia. Plus every time I feel even a twinge of something or have to go to the bathroom and it's a bit off, my first thought is that I have to go home. I've even gone home from work sick, stayed therefor like 2 hours and then felt better and came back to work. My boss looked at me like I was a freak. I mean, who goes home sick and then comes back??? It was all because of emet. You're so not alone in this. I think we all feel better at home where we feel we are safe and that's all there is to it. I hope you're feeling better.[img]smileys/smilies_02.gif[/img]

[SimplyMe]

Thanks so much you guys! You always make me feel so not freakish lol. It sucks because I know people don't go in over really stupid or fake reasons and mine even tho I'm 99% sure it's PMS is still "real" to me but I still feel guilty. Thanks again guys you're the greatest!

[charzysbebe]

How dare you live somewhere where it is 80 degrees!!!!! [img]smileys/smilies_07.gif[/img]LOLOL! OMG, I am so jealous of you! That is just WRONG!!!


It was butt a** cold here today...and here I thought that tomorrow was going to be nice! (45 degrees...HEHEHE, HAHAHAHAHA, LOLOLOLOL!)


Anyways, I can definately relate to how you are feeling. I cannot even begin to tell you how many times I didn't go somewhere I was supposed to...all because of emet! I felt like a loser too, but you know what?? We emets shouldn't feel like losers...for we really do have a debilitating condition, and most people would neverunderstand. I am sure you will be fine, as far as feeling yucky is concerned! Take care, Charlotte[img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]

[SimplyMe]

LOL Yes, it's nice to have comfortable weather in the winter but summers are dreadfully hot and humid plus hurricanes (I live in Florida) so it has its paybacks lol.


You are right, a lot of people oculdn't understand and it is dibilitating, I just wish it weren't. whats the saying wish in one hand.... LOL Thanks tho! I just wish I'd hurry up and get my stupid period so I can start feeling like me again lol. Men are soooo lucky!

[sydoz]

80 degrees! LUCKY!!!! I live in Ohio where we were celebrating over 45 degree weather today.


I hate the time before my period where I just feel sick and I don't know if it's the PMS or that I'm really getting sick. Then, as if PMS isn't bad enough, you have your emet to make you even more moody!


I know exactly what you mean about using your emet as an excuse too. I used to skip days of class and blame it on my emet. "I can't go to class because I'll have a panic attack", etc. This is just one more thing that makes us hang on to the phobia I think. It gives us an excuse for things we don't want to face. Not to say that is why you guys do that, but for me I found that to be true. If something isn't pleasant, my emet kicks in and gives me a reason to avoid it.

[SimplyMe]

right like you dont' intentionally say "oh I'm gonna fake an emet attack" you really have it and the fear but it just holds you back whether its somethign you want to do or not.

[michelledenise]

I actually wish it was cooler here. It's been over 85 here for the past 3 days (south Texas) and I am already sick of it. It's just a reminder of what will be here for the summer: 100 degrees with 100% humidity... yuck! And the mosquitos, don't even get me started!