I didn't want to fill the forums with mywoes lol,because im aware that some of you are having terrible times right now..but i could do with a few words of wisdom.



To put it briefly, i haven't seen my supposed best mate, properly, in 6 months since she started going out with some lad who used to be in our school.
We used to be literally joint at the hip, did everything together; until it reached a stage where she completely branched off and cut me outof the picturefor her boyfriend and all his friends yada yada.

In the meantime, I found out a lot of stuff that she'd done..which made me feel really distant from her, and made me question why she hadn't already told me.
Since this time, she's completely changed, she's "harder" less approachable, she drinks more, even treats me differently..even hit one of my closest friends infront of me.
the strange thing was, i could see all of this coming months ago; but it still hurts knowing that i don't play a big part in her life anymore.
In school, i must exchange about 3 sentances with her during the entire day..and it's left me feeling really sad.

The worst part is, despite having other mates who i mostlythink the world of too- i never see them. I hate feeling asthough no-one wants me around.
As soon as i seem to get close to someone, the tables turn; and im left feeling redundant- even tho tht's probably not true.
I miss being perminantly occupied and i feel as tho i don't play a valuable role anymore.
I guess im just lonely, but it's a horrible thing to admit to being..