I told myself I wouldn't post anymore posts whilst feeling anxious or just in a panic about anything in particular but today is different. I feel as though I have been exposed to so many germs and it's making me feel physically ill.

My aunty and her family have just been on holiday to Zante (they came back yesterday, we were all at my grandparents for the day) and they all seemed fine until my cousin said her stomach was hurting. As an emet, this tends to trigger off panic thinking for me and I started to feel a little anxious, wondering if she was ill and if she would get ill whilst I was there. I tried to talk myself round and convince myself she's only young so it could be anything. A somewhat 30 minutes later, she was on the toilet with D*. I felt sorry for her, of course I did, it's not nice having D* at all but I just couldn't stop thinking about the possibility that she may have a stomach bug. I've felt so ill with worry all day because of it, i've been around them all for about 6/7 hours and mainly my cousin as she likes to show me all her new toys and books and things like that. I feel so dirty and as though i've caught something from her. I can't even think straight because I have this awful feeling within the next two days i'm going to get ill :|

I doubt anyone really cares that much but I needed to vent this somewhere and as my family are pretty much tired of hearing me talk about things like this I thought here would be perfect. - I also forgot to mention. My gran had prepared some dinner for us, just nibble type things, like tapas and it had occured to me that she had been sorting through my aunty's/cousin's clothes and am thinking what if they had the germ on them and she hasn't bothered to wash her hands?? It's not even worth thinking about.