Okay so I have emetophobia, bad, but I've made a lot of progress in the last year, except now that I can finally eat again, it has started to get out of control. I think I'm fast developing a food addiction. I've gone from literally not being able to eat at all, to then being able to eat maybe 5 foods I deemed safe, to now eating out of control just about anything that's in front of me! I can no longer buy a bag of anything without eating the whole thing. And I don't mean just junk because quite honestly I don't like that kind of food. But yesterday I bought a bag of fresh raw peas and I ended up eating the whole thing. If I buy 12 cups of yogurt, I end up eating them all in two days. If I make too much dinner, I'll put the leftovers in the fridge but before it can even get cold, I'll end up polishing it off! And I'm not even hungry. I eat way past my hunger point to the point where I'm so full I feel almost sick. Then I get scared because with my stomach that full, what if I vomit?

I went from weighing 120lbs before emetophobia, down to 93lbs during the worst of emetohobia, up to a whopping 160lbs now!!! I'm so afraid if I don't get this under control, I'll end up like one of those people who become fused to their bed!

How is it possible for a person to have a vomiting phobia AND a food addiction, and why would I suddently develop an addiction to food of all things when I'm finally better emet-wise? It makes no sense. I never had a problem with food or any other addiction before emet, then I became anorexic because I was too afraid to eat, then I worked on my emetophobia and made significant prograss but I'm still very emetophobic now, it's just that I'm a functioning emetophobic now whereas before I could barely function. I don't know whether to laugh or cry at this point, I went from being anorexic to not being able to stop stuffing my face.... and I'm still emetophobic!

So I guess it's time for some peer support which is why I finally joined this site. Maybe getting feedback from other emets might help.

Thanks for reading this, sorry if I'm rambling.