petrified...hospial

[Jenneh]

im sory if i make ne typos and this becoes unreadable


but i've never been so scared in my life


guys, WHAT HAPPENED TO ME?!? how did i get this way?!?!?


its nearly friday... hospital day... if theywant, they can just admit me, THERE AND THEN. and i know it'll be for the best in the long term, but thats gnna spark my phobia off so badly.


i throt i was in contorl. i thought i had emet under my wing. turns out i dont. at al. its endedme up in a f***ing mental institution basically.


i cant stop shaking. i am so scared. i cant eat, cos im so scared that makes me feel even mor nauseous e.t.c.


you guys have no idea what speed my mind is running at today. . the thoughts are whizzing past like no end. i so badly need someone here. really really really badly.


HOW DID I END UP THIS WAY... WHAT DID I DO WRONG?


i am so scared. i ache all over because i'm so tense, so shakey, so ARGH. i wud go out fora walk, but its raining. it has to be raining desnt it.


oh my god i dunno how i'm gnna get thru this. someone help. please.


xxxxxx

[emms]

Jen~


I'm going to PM you!


Mara

[mitch4133]

How are you feelilng Jenneh? I am so sorry that you are having a tough time right now. I can't even imagine how scared and nervous you must be. But you have to try to look at the positve. If you do get admitted, you will get the treatment that you need and deserve. It will probably be tough at first, but as after a couple of days there, you will be more comfortable, and just be able to concentrate on yourself, and workingon yourself. Try to look at the postive, and I know its tough. I will be thinking and praying for you. Keep us updated, your in my thoughts.


Michele[img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[2jo2]

OMG Jen,


I feel so bad for you that you're so scared, but like you said, it's going to be good for you. You're bound to be nervous because you'll be out of your comfort zone. I hope they won't make you do anything that you are clearly not ready for, but you do need to get better and you need to eat, at least try to. Try not to let your mind get you like this. Please keep us updated.


Hugs to you ~

[faith-marilyn]

i've spoke 2 u on msn hun, u know the advice ie given u, just remember that they are goin to make u better an there is no reason to be afraid. after a while u will become comfortable with the people there and u will realise it is safe and u'll settle down. in a few weeks when u are out of there u'll look back on the experience and thank god for it an question y u wer so afraid to go thru it. they are gunna make u better an ur gunna be okay, please remember that, nothing bad is going to happen to u.
good luck hun xxxx

[SimplyMe]

Aww, I'm so sorry you're going thru all of this. But like everyone else said even if you get admitted it will help you and you wont' have to feel so scared. They know about your emet right? I'm sure they will be understanding if they knwo and work with you. Let us know how your'e doing!

[Galadriel]

Hey Jenneh,


I am so sorry this is happening to you liek this andthat you are so scared. I can fully understand the fear, I too would be a wreck. You are such a wonderful person Jenneh, you have always made me smile. I know this must be incredibly hard for you. Hang in there, this may be the best opprotunity for you to really be able to focus on getting help. You WILL make it Jen, you'll come out of this, and make it. I know now it seems impossible, but just try and go in thinkin "these people are here to help me" and dont be afraid to really talk to them and make them understand just what it is you need and how you feel. If your scared and REALLY dont wanna do something they are trying to make you do, tell them so. You will definately be in my thoughts while your away. Come back soon!! [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]