I just realised my fear!

[Popiko]

I just realised my fear and its such a relief!! I've been struggling with it since I first went to school. I couldn't attend my classes, I was always looking at the door and my worst nightmare was travelling. I was feeling nauseus hours or days before the trip.
The peak of my phobia was about three years ago, when I just stopped eating and I lost 15kg and I barely left home.
Nobody knew why I didn't want to eat, they just thought that it was a depression caused by the vast changes a 19 year old faces. I couldn't tell them what was wrong because...I was too afraid to say the word!!! I thought that even saying the word "vomit" I would be sick.
I would also like to add, that my body seems incapable of vomiting the past 14 years. Although I sometimes suffered from food poisoning, gastrointestinal flu and I even got salmonella once, I couldn't vomit.
Anyway, I feel a little better know. I wanted to share it, it is the first time I spoke about it and I think it's because I realised that there are other people with the same problem.
I was feeling really weird because I thought I was on my own.

[kbscared]

I was 19 when my phobia with V* peaked-I too lost a lot of weight and my family was worried however I knew for sometime before that my fear was getting sick-I wish you the best of luck

[lauren37]

im 14 and this has caused me to loose wait too ur not alone

[BrightStars]

I'm 18 now and mine has peaked a few times in the past. However I feel that now it is peobably going to peak its worse as I am reacting to it so badly. I can't eat really - I force myself to eat breads or crisps as I deem them "safe" and I start automatically feeling sick as soon as I go out and rushing things to get home faster. I won't go out for leisure - there has to be a reason. I know this is an older thread but I'm new here and probably could do with hearing about how you got through it all and how you're doing now
Jenna x

[Valerie13Ann]

My phobia peaked when I was about 19-20 too. I'm 24 now. And I think I've always had it as I always was anxious and panicked anytime someone v*d. Or I felt sick myself. But I didnt dwell on it like I do now. I dont know what causes me to dwell on it like I do...I get anxious before any car ride that I am not the one driving. Ugh. it sucks. But I'm glad you're here sharing with us. As you're not alone.