I've been reading a lot of the posts trying to figure out how to conquer this intense phobia. I know it will be a lot of work and I'm not really sure where to start. But I've just been feeling so unhappy lately and depressed, no motivation or ambition what so ever. We moved about a month ago and I can't hardly unpack anything, no drive. I think it's this stupid phobia. I've been feeling more nauseated lately by things I eat or drink, like this morning with my coffee. It's just too strong and a comforting thing that I look forward to every morning turns into a negative thing. I've been having more panic attacks lately because food just makes me feel nauseated then I panic then feel more nauseated. I am completely miserable and so depressed that I can't hardly help myself. No one I know really understands this phobia and how all-consuming it is and how much freedom it takes away from your life and your joy in life. I know you all understand how it feels. I feel alone in my world though. I don't have a lot of friends. I have a best friend but she's busy all the time. Yesterday I thought my husband and I could do something fun like go to the lake and spend the day. Then I thought of inviting our best friends. Well, they couldn't go, my husband didn't really want to go. Then I invited someone else to go with me, they couldn't go(or just didn't want to go with me), so I ended up going by myself. I just felt so rejected. And I don't think the low self-esteem and not feeling good enough helps the phobia or anxiety. I want to beat this and be happy but I just don't have the strength today.