It almost happened and it was ok

[Mumof2]

last night I ended up gettin the bug off my daughter and had sore tummy cramps and couldn't sleep with it. It was so sore and uncomfortable that I actually tried to make myself v* for some peace! Never in my life have I ever done that so had to ask my hubby what to do but it didn't work, my strong tummy kept it down. So it was an uncomfortable night BUT I didn't feel overly anxious and a bug is my huge trigger for panic attacks. I feel so much better today and just need to go to the loo every hour! I'm so pleased with myself. It wasn't nice but I won't have the same fear in future. I wanted rid of the stupid bug so much that v* seemed the right thing to do- who would have thought!

Not sure why I posted this, I guess I just feel like this is a little bit of my recovery starting and in some ways its hard to imagine shaking and panicing over the idea of being sick especially since it hardly ever happens to me. Hope this post hasnt upset anyone, it just shows we all have our own individual fears to conquer and it's tough but we will all get there at sone point x

[becca44]

Sorry you caught the dreaded bug, if youve got little kids it cant be helped no matter how hygenic you are, i have learnt that! Your post has made me think even more that for most of us emet is the tip of the iceburg, im sure its underlying issues that cause this phobia, i too have felt so sick that i have actually wanted to vomit to get it up and over and done with, with real nausea i panic less than with an anxiety/panic attack nausea, i dont think anybody would be upset by what youve said. Pleased youre feeling better and hopefully this is the first step to recovery for you!

[Mumof2]

Thank you becca yeah I washed everything with anti bacterial spray but I used the same hand towel as her. Your right about the underlying thing. My doc reckons depression is adding to this anxiety and I think she's right

[becca44]

Are you taking any meds? Ive been on seroxat for years and its made a hell of a difference, im more outgoing and confident, i wasnt antisocial before but avoided socialising due to low self esteem, had really bad ocd and was down a lot of the time. The dont work miracles but make life a bit easier. When my son and i had food poisoning the doc told us not to share towels with other people in the house, wash our plates and cutlery separately etc, these things are so easy to pass on.

[Mumof2]

I'm taking zoloft and although it's only been about 4 weeks I can see a big difference. So glad I stuck with them because they made me feel nauseas at the start but thank goodness that's gone. Its so easy to develop other things like OCD and agoraphobia from emet, it effects everything. Poor you having food poisoning. I had it once and it was awful! (although I didn't v* with it).

[becca44]

Neither did we thank god, just awful cramps and diarrohea that went on for weeks. Pleased youre taking something and its working, they really do help.