This is my first real post on this website so here it goes.

I have been dating my boyfriend for just over a year and a half now. We spend most nights together just at my house or at his house and usually things are fine.

In the time we've been dating he has gotten very sick a few different times. One time he was at my house and actually ran out of my house because he didn't want to get sick in front of me, he ended up getting sick in my back lane. Because of me.

Most recently he woke up in the middle of the night dizzy beyond belief, could hardly stand. Turns out he had an inner ear infection causing him to have no balance and was v-ing throughout the day. We were unable to move him until about dinner time, so i was with him in my house from 4:30 in the morning until dinner time that day. What a long day it was.

I feel sad because it was horrible for him, but it was also just horrible for me. I had to stay home from work to take care of him. He would always tell me to go upstairs if he was going to be sick, and if he was sick while i was there i automatically closed my ears and turned around.

How can i be a good person if i can't take care of the people i love. What will i do when i want to become a parent and decide to have children, children get sick. I can't live my whole life being so afraid.

Just writing this out is causing my anxiety to get really bad, my mouth and throat habits are starting to occur (which make me feel worse).

Does anyone have any advice or anything about dealing with other people who are sick?