OT (kind of); in a panic

[nicki]

It is now just 3 months until i finish university. In that time i have a 10000 word research project to write (plus finish collecting my data for it and analsying 220 pages of data as statistics), a 2000 word essay plus exercise program to write, a 1000 word lab report (shorter essays are always so much harder). I also have lectures to attend, reading to do, work experience in schools and sports coaching qualifications to do.


I am in such a panic, I just don't know what to do, i have so much work to plough through and i don't know where to start, ive been sat at my desk crying for the last hour and hence have wasted another hour, I am constantly tired as i get about 3 hours sleep a night. my only solution seems to be to stya up tonight to write my lab report, but then i wont be able to go to my lecture tomorrowand I'll have to catch up with that. I am so tired tho, i cant sleep at night cos of the emet and i think that if i sleep tomorrow morning and not go to my lecture maybe ill start to see things clearer as i wont be so tired.


I just dont know what to do and ive got noone to turn to, i get good grades, about 50% of the time they fall into the top cateogory you can get and consequently all of my friends dont realise how much i am struggling

[nicki]

the tiredness i think is making me nauseous too, which is making my emet worse, plus i am freaking out about germs much more than usual

[baseballplaya12]

You can do it...dont worry about the emet its almost spring...try and relax
for 10 minutes lay down focus on your breathing dont let a thouhgt of
emet or your schoolwork enter your mind...AND SLEEP...thats the best
thing you can do...not to be annoying or anything is it really gonna make
a difference if you wake up v'ing or not...? dont worry about it youll be
fine...not sleepings not good for you...

[nicki]

i get scared of waking up and v*ing because i woke up in the middle of the night once and v* everywhere at my dads house, i was a child at the time, my dads ex-wife, my stepmum at the time was awful about and without going into too much detail i was neglected for about 10 years.


I know she is not around anymore, but its etched in my memory and i believe the reason i have emet, i was too scared to get ill cos she was so nasty to me.


Im going to stay up tonight and work and then sleep tomorrow (for some reason im not scared of sleeping in the day!), then in the evening my ex-bf (we are now the best of friends) is coming round for the evening to watch films and play on the playstation so hopefully that will give me a chance to relax