Hi, i haven't been around in a while.


I hate the nights when my brother goes out drinking. He's gone to a gig and then he's going out drinking. He has good stamina but he'll drink anything really. I hate not knowing what state he'll come home or if his stomach can handle whateveralcohol he's had.


I get so panicky and i don't really sleep when he goes out unless he stays at his friends houses. Drunken v* sounds disgusting, i hate that i can't deal with it. i feel so pathetic.