I only seem to feel especially scared when im actually feeling N* or my stomach hurts. When i dont have N* i just think "oh well how bad could it be". but then when my stomach hurts i feel like "oh god this is not going to be okay this is super dangerous, like im gonna be seriously hurt"
i just feel like i cant let that N* elevate any more than it already is. I feel like V* must be the high point of the nausea but really it is not. In fact it feels a lot better than the nausea.
I have only V* once that i can remember (too young otherwise) and i was really drunk.