-Sorry in advance for sounding so depressing-

Not sure if this is the right place to post. But I'm new to the forums after checking the site out for a while. It's kind of good to know I'm not alone with this phobia. But, I do need a bit of advice I suppose. Here comes my rant/history...

I've had this fear my entire life. My entire family considers it a bit silly, as do my doctors. But, I suffer from chronic n*. And having this fear along with it makes me feel trapped almost. Something I can't easily escape. I don't handle it very well at all, aka I freak out completely after having an attack, which causes an anxiety attack... And it never stops. I get so scared I can't even eat or barely drink anything, which isn't healthy.

I just, don't know how to fix my fear. I wish I could at least handle it better so that I could handle being n* easier. But right now I'm at my wits end... help?