One day at a time!

[CrazyGirl1123]

It's been a year and some odd days since my emet spiraled uncontrollably downward. There were literally moments where I just gave up living. Like, there was no reason for my existance anymore. After losing a job because of my anxiety and almost losing my marriage I knew that I could no longer continue. But you know what? "What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger!" When I didn't think things could get any worse. I got a call one morning from my husband saying that he was going to jail. He had gotten caught stealing from his work and was being arrested. Things had been very weird between us for months. He was never supportive of me and my emet and anxiety and started acting out. Blaming me for all of his problems. I learned after bailing him out of jail that he had started using drugs heavily and that he needed help. At that moment, I knew my life needed to change. I know I wasn't the one that drove him to do it but I also know that I wasn't helping the situation either. I was being the wife he needed me to be. Over the last few months I have gotten better and so has he. He has been clean since October and I have been ALMOST anxiety free since November! Of course I still have my moments of fear and some are worse than others but I know that if I didn't do something about it.. I would have probably ended my life. My whole world came crashing down and instead of running away from it, I dove in head first not knowing if I was going to come up again and I did. Our lives are too short to let this stupid fear ruin everything for us!

So to all those students who don't feel like they can continue their education because they are afraid of getting sick in class. GO!
To the mothers who can't care for their kids when they are sick. HUG THEM AND BE BY THEIR SIDE!
To the employees like me who are too afraid to go to work. GO BE THE BEST DAMN EMPLOYEE THEY WILL EVER SEE!

I know this is easier said than done but I hope that it gives someone inspiration
We'll all make it out alive!

[olschesky]

thanks for posting.......so happy for your life now