If you don't know, I've been really struggling with severe stage fright (obviously related to my emet). When I was in 9th grade, I ate a bowl of mac and cheese before Solo and Ensemble and felt so sick while I was there. It was terrible, I was away from home, it was nighttime, and I felt so ..hm....trapped? And my dad had a menieres attack. Since then, I've been terrified of performing, which is terrible since I play in 2 bands and 3 instruments. It has gotten so bad, that I got nervous just practicing my instrument. But today, I had Solo and Ensemble at the same High School as 9th grade, at 8 am, with only 5 other people.
My mom and I have been looking at this as a good goal, as the only other people in the room would be the judge, room supervisor, and some parents and siblings. Nevertheless, I was still nervous. So I tried to keep my routine normal the night before, and be excited, not nervous. It worked pretty well, but I was still nervous that I would get nervous, resulting in nausea. I hope that makes sense. Anyway, I got there, and before I knew it, I was in the room playing my sax, and I realized "Wow! I'm actually enjoying this! A lot!" It was SO much fun! I am so very proud of this, and hope that it is a wonderful step in a wonderful direction!!!
We can do this!!



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just remember that most people.....even non emets.....get nervous before a performance so that part is pretty normal......sounds like you dealt with it really well 