Hello everyone! I just found this site and I was quite suprised (and
relieved) to see an emetophobia community truly existed. My name's
Charles and I just turned 19. As far as I can remember I've suffered of
emetophobia (although not extreme), I could do whatever I wanted, but
if I felt sick, there's no way I would puke, I would start shaking and
crying.
Last september I caught a very bad virus, it was an epidemy around
here, a very bad gastro virus, and everyone who caught it were stuck
vomiting for weeks. Well I caught it. I still remember the first
morning, september 8th. I couldn't eat anything, always felt I was on
the verge of vomiting. Since I never vomited, the virus stayed a long
time inside me, I was very weak for 2 months, I could barely eat in
fear of vomiting, nor would I go out since I didn't have a lot of
strength and was constantly dizzy. Needless to say it was horrible, a
nightmare. Time passed by, the virus faded away, but not THAT feeling.
I still haven't mentally recovered. I'm scared to eat and puke, it's
been a long time since I last eaten out or went to a show, or anything
like that. I'm scared of heading out and being in a situation where I
couldn't go safely back home and lie down if I felt bad, or get water,
or gum to chew. I panic whenever I go out, my heart accelerates, I get
weak (As on the verge of falling uncounsious) my knees are shaky and I
feel nauseous, I sweat a lot and just feel like crying. I found out
chewing gum helps a lot, but hell, now I panic if I don't have any gum.
Basically my social activities are reduced to zero. Sometimes I manage
to fight the panic and do as if everything was normal but most of the
time it doesn't work. I dont eat things that could make me nauseous,
I'm scared of being hungry and dizzy just as much as I'm scared to eat,
and when I do, I'm so stressed I can't digest the food, and it just
sits at the bottom of my throat, and well, as you guessed it, it's a
pretty vicious circle. I know the only way out is to keep fighting the
panic attacks, and gradually try to live normally again but so far I
havent seen any progress at all. I'm sure others feel the same way I do
(Feels good to know I'm not alone) and I'd like to know if others are
(or were) in the same situation as me, and what kind of exercises/tips
you have to help you go around.
I know in most forums they would tell me "well look in previous posts"
but it feels good to tell the story to people who actually know what
I'm going through, instead of smiling and saying emetophobia is stupid,
or telling you to simply vomit and to get over it (Talking from
experience)
Thanks a lot, Charles
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Originally Posted by blood_tears
