Hey! So today I'm at college, feeling the same feeling all us emets get, but today im happy.
Why?
Well, Saturday night was my boyfriends 19th birthday night out. I told myself that I WAS going and that I wouldn't let him down again with my emet.
The place I go is a fun, happy club/bar which I feel safe in because they throw out anyone who looks too drunk or looks like they'll v* soon, so it's a massive peace-of-mind place for me!
Anyway, I popped outside because a few of my friends smoke, and as I looked across the road, a girl my age was in a bent over position v*ing! My friends will never fully understand my phobia, but they really couldn't help me that night. I was all over the place, my hands started sweating, my stomach was flipping and my head was dizzy... and the first person I looked for was my boyfriend! He was nowhere in sight.
Once I found him, about 3 minutes had passed and I was still in major panic mode. He instantly saw it in my eyes as I looked at him, and he pulled away from his friends and cuddled me, stroked my hair and told me to let it all out. And that was it. I did. I burst into the biggest flood of tears right in the middle of the club, and yet he didn't care. He just kept telling me to let it all out.
He took me out and walked me along the seafront, telling me that I have to remember that nobody was looking apart from me and that I have to remember that.
and then out of the blue HE started to cry!
Bless his heart, he was upset that he wasn't there for the 3 minutes I panicked on my own!
And that's why I'm happy. Because I finally found someone who cares, who REALLY cares. My family are useless and don't want to believe it, and I though I'd always have to cope on my own.
I just want anyone to know who's in the same position as me, who have family who don't care, that there is ALWAYS someone out there to helpI promise xxxx



I promise xxxx
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