Frequent Panic Attacks......WHY??

[aguerra29]

The last few nights I have woken up with a horrible stomach ache and of course I start having a panic attack. I'll burp alot and the other way too. I never go to the bathroom. When I wake up I am on my back and if I roll over on to my stomach that helps me feel better. Last night I woke up at 3:30AM and I completely freaked out cuz that is the time of night that it was the last time I threw up. I haven't freaked out like this in awhile. I didn't take my phenergran, though. I was close. We just started a super low cal diet and intense excercise (at least it is for me). I have been dreaming alot lately about my mom too. (For those of you who don't know - she passed away 6 years ago) I haven't dreamt about her in a long time. I feel like I am taking a step backwards. I was doing so good, then I have had two panic attacks this week. Is this ever going to go away? I mean I think about it every single day. It's ridiculous.

[terified girl]

I know how you are feeling, I had been doing pretty goodmyself and lately I have had a few attacks where each time I lose and take an ativan....And today at work I am feeling panicky also which hasn't happened like this in over a year....


So I feel for you, and maybe your mom's coming through to comfort you. Did she say anything to you in your dream? Did she do anything?

[aguerra29]

The dreams were not good dreams. For a few years after my mom died i would dream about her every night. And every night it was the same theme. I "knew" in my dream that she was going to die and I was trying to stop it. By not letting her eat bad, or not letting her ober exert herself. Then for a few years I would just have pleasnt dreams of my mom. I had a great dream about a year ago when I got to tell her I was getting married. Then about a week or so ago I've been having the dreams where I "know" she is going to die and I am trying to stop it. Like she wanted something to drink and I wanted to give her a Diet coke instead of regular coke because it is better for her (She died of a heart attack and she was obese). I just wanted to ball like a baby last night. I felt like if I started crying I wouldn't stop. My husband just held me and tried to make me laugh. I just miss her so much and need her. I need to talk to her about this stupid fear. I think she had it too. It is just so overwhelming right now.

[terified girl]

I am really sorry you aren't having pleasant dreams....Maybe you just haven't been able to let go of her death, maybe you blame yourself for not being able to help her more than you did, and maybe you don't even realize it but its coming out into your dreams.


I lost my dad too 5 years ago and still today I haven't let go of him, and everyday I pray I could see him and talk to him and maybe help me too with this fear, but I can't. I even pray he'll help me through my dreams. We had an awesome conversation over a year ago and I was so happy but it wasn't enough for me.


If you need to talk more about this, I will try to be around but you can always email me or pm me.


I just want to help you because I know what you are going through except for the bad dreams...

[aguerra29]

thanks terrified girl. That means alot to me. I don't know how I would have been able to cope with this without this forum. Thank you.

[terified girl]

You are very welcome, and I mean it about pm'ing me ok!


We'll give eachother some therapy!