Hi Everyone,

I have the Doctors in 45 minutes , I am freaking out , basically I have already told a doctor at my surgery that I have Emetophobia and he has referred me for CBT , when that will start is anyone's guess!!.
So today I have come to the conclusion that I need some time off work , I work as a nurse and I don't know how iv'e got through the winter and everything , but I did , I am now way too ill to go to work and way to ill to even carry on in this sector of work ( please note I only got Emetophobia in September 2011 due to a car accident so I didn't start this career as a choice with emetophobia)..... anyway basically I need to be signed off for a couple of months , so therefore I need to ask for a medical certificate ( which is making me feel like a failure and an Idiot basically) I also need to ask to be put on an anti anxiety/depression drug whatever they prescribe for this type of phobia because I cant take any more , I obviously know a lot about side affects that medication can cause so I will make sure that I am not prescribed with something that is going to leave me V* and in utter distress , I will have to discuss my options with the GP.

So not only do I have to go in and ask for the things and help I never thought I'd have to ask for , I have to explain it all to a locum doctor that I have never seen before in my life , I want to cry and I feel so embarrassed , they never look at there notes and they wont know how I am feeling unless I let it all out , I find it extremely difficult to do this to family and friends , let alone to some random doctor that I have never met.

Why has everything gone so wrong since that horrific car accident ?? I fractured my neck btw and was on a spinal board , which I believe led to the emetophobia.

Some of you have been going through this for years, mine is a matter of months and I would really appreciate some help and guidance

Thank you .

Sam
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