i start work tomorrrow for the first time in almost a year. im scared
I'm so scared I'm going to screw it up...its just pizza delivery..but I've never worked fast food in my entire life....imstarting orientation tomorrow and I'm really nervous and scared I'm going to have panic attacks or feel nauseous...I really want (and need) to start working. Our 4th baby is on the way and we need a second income...I was in school for a while but anxiety screwed that up for me....the last job I had, anxiety screwed that up for me. I had a panic attack at subway..yes,the sandwich shop...on my 4th day of work...anybody else struggle with daily life and being afraid to go to work...I chose to do delivery because id be by myself almost the whole time and I don't have to be in the actual store where people might eat too much pizza and vomit...but for some reason,I'm still scared..is it even possible to screw up a delivery job?
"It is the child that sees the primordial secret in nature and it is the child of ourselves we return to. The child with-in us is simple and daring enough to live the secret."