It's all my own fault

[Hayley807]

I'm so stupid !!! I have been an emet sufferer for a very long time but I went out for a few drinks last night. It turned into more than a few and I got drunk . So did my partner and my friends too. It's now morning and I have woken up terrified :'(!! I am having a full blown panic attack and I haven't even moved out of bed!! Its not so much myself I worry about being poorly, it's my partner. I want nothing more than to shove him out of my front door and hide all day!!
This is another problem he is a relatively new partner of around 4 months. I don't think he fully grasps the full extent of my fears and I just want him to get out of my bed and go home. I can't cope with this.
Somebody, anybody please help me because I feel so silly :'(. I was 21 last week and I can't even enjoy being it
Because I'm still ruled by this x

[Ana Bellini]

Hey Hayley, I can't understand why our fellow emets here ignore some posts.

I'm afraid I can't be of much help and you are already out of bed, but let me try to make you feel better:

1. It's not "all your own fault". You went with your boyfriend and friends, so if it's someone's fault, it's your boyfriend's and friends' fault too. You all went to drink.
2. A teen shouldn't say this, but avoid "going out for drinks". If you go with these words in your mind, you will drink 'cause that's what you went out for.
3. You drank last night. If you had to v*, you would have v* yesterday.
4. Tell your partner about your emet. He has to understand. If he doesn't, he just isn't the right person (you can't live with someone who doesn't understand your phobia!).
5. Each person has it's own way to enjoy being 21. It's not because you are 21 that you'll drink every night. It's not because you are 18 you'll watch porno every night. It's not because you just turned 16 that you HAVE TO have a good car and drive it to show yourself.

I'm under 18 so I can't drive, smoke and drink (here you can drink after you turn 18). I know that when I turn 18, I WON'T drink and smoke because I know it's not good for me; I won't follow my friends just like a puppy.

It's your life. You control this, don't let anyone control you. Just think before doing things that you can regret later.