This fear has taken everything from me. I can't even function. I can't hardly eat, can't even go to my yard, can't have friends over and its all I think about. I constantly think I will v* and my mom thinks its ocd. I feel like i want to kill myself and suicide runs through my mind constantly as well. I have went back to self harm. I am just waiting for myself to v* everyday. I haven't in 4 years. I am just not okay right now and could use some logical answers.