Ever since I can remember I've had a irrational fear of vomiting, but over the many years the reasoning behind it has changed. In my childhood I was afraid of vomiting or seeing others vomit, it wasn't any particular reason, it just triggered fear, it had this bad association with it that terrified me to the bone. I also had claustrophobia, again it was similar, it wasn't any particular reason there and then other than the feeling of entrapment had a very negative association.In my mid-teens, claustrophobia was almost gone, elevators didn't bother me much and neither did closed spaces (atleast not beyond normal), the same for my fear of vomit. A incident that made me throw up brought the fear of vomiting back again -- but this time it was different.

It is not so much that I fear others vomit or that I feel the same sort of trauma I did when I was a kid when I'd see someone throw up, it's just that it makes me so close to gag, and sometimes i actually end up gagging and throwing up.

But I don't need to see it for that matter, and it's not limited to vomit. It's visualizations of something disgusting and if I'm caught off-guard by the these, I'll become incredibly nauseous to the point where I might actually throw up. And that is where my fear is now, I'm afraid that I won't be able to stop thinking about something disgusting which leads to throwing up, and in turn that will lead to the point where I need help -- help as in disabled, the need to be besides a feeding tube the rest of my life.

Can anyone relate? is this emetophobia?