My emet is so bad that I've actually been hospitalized because I would not eat for months. I've been in and out of hospitals doing a bunch of tests to figure out what is wrong with my stomach and everything was fine. All it was was my phobia.
I did get better after i was put into an eating disorder hospital, where they basocally forced me to eat, which did make me feel better. so for the past 4 years ive been fine but I would still get scared and freak out if I or anyone around me felt sick or got sick but I was still able to have a pretty normal life and eat and go out.

But then a few months ago it started again with me not wanting to eat anything cause I'd always feel sick after but I know it's anxiety. I lost a lot of weight and had to move back home with my parents for a while. They put me back in the eating disorder program but it does help!! Especially when all the girls there talk about v* and how they did it last night or this morning and it freaks me out. I just don't know why it is so hard for me to eat. I'm just so scared to feel sick but by not eating I'm making myself feel worse.

I feel so hopeless right now. Like this is just never going to get better. This phobia and all this anxiety is really affecting my life in very bad ways. I feel like I'm losing everything. And I just hate seeing how disappointed and worried and scared my family is. I don't know what I can do to make this better. No one seems to understand even therapists and doctors. They say they do but they don't understand just how bad my fear is and how crazy it makes me feel every day. It's getting to the point where I can't leave the house.

I'm just wondering for the people that are suffering from this, have you ever stopped eating for a while? If so, how did you start again and how'd you feel? I would really appreciate any suggestions