I don't wanna be like this anymore.

[brokensoul93]

Ever since a traumatic illness when I was a young child, I have had this severe and debilitating fear. My senior year of high school had to be finished in night classes because my anxiety attacks got so frequent and intense. After a while things got manageable, so I went off of my Prozac. About two months later (3 weeks ago) my anxiety attacks came back full force and almost worse than before. Obviously I know its because I went off my meds, but me being so unstable is enough to make me think otherwise. It's the season I dread most and when I so much as forget to wash/sanatize my hands I freak out. Another reason I've been feeling so off is because i also slacked on my birth control pills so my hormones went way off balance. It's been a few weeks since I went back on both my Prozac and my birth control so hopefully that means I will be leveling out soon. Until then I am just sitting here in bed wide awake very hungry because I haven't been able to bring myself to eat much lately, and I'm freaking out because my stomach won't growl and I can't fall back asleep and I have a headache and blah blah blah. 19 years old and terrified that I will never be able to live a normal life with my fiancé. Can anyone give me some words of encouragement or something? It would be immensely appreciated!!

[Da_Coffee]

Have you ever tried to get a Therapist for this? They normally recommend you to take the meds while doing so, but it will help you in the future. I highly recommend getting back on Prozac ( such a hypocrite, I don't even take my anxiety medication ). Try to talk to your fiance more about it, because at times like these, we Emets really need a right wing to be under. Try and take your mind off of things ( Meditation works great and also various smells help calm down the mind ), spend some time with that fiance of yours, just be glad you're not 16 again and have to go to school in the morning on absolutely no sleep because of n* from frozen yogurt ( sorry, complaining mode really got the best of me ). This is only the beginning of the fight, and there are many things we can do to even begin to grasp the bull on the horns, but the thing is, are you strong enough to? Think to yourself on that one.

[olschesky]

i agree with da.......i'm glad you are back on your prozac.....i've been on it for many years and do occasionally stop taking it for a while....but unfortunately the obsessive thoughts creep back in so i go back on it.....

the best thing you can do is push yourself......everyday.....accomplish something....no matter how small....baby steps....the more you accomplish the easier it will be to move forward.....

i know there have been members here that were totally housebound for a long time and are now out and living normal lives....it's all about learning to make it through the anxiety and seeing that you are just fine ....

we're here to help......baby steps

[brokensoul93]

I had a therapist all through high school then I started working and going to school full time after I graduated so I never had the time. I had to quit cosmetology school after a really bad car accident last year and lost my full time job at dominos because it happened while I was delivering. Now I barely work 2 days a week as a hostess at a family resteraunt and I should probably go back to a therapist because since I work with thousands of people I tend to get germaphobic as well. It's slowly getting better and my fiancé knows I have panic attacks and helps me through them. But the reason I don't have a therapist right now is because when I turned 18 I couldn't be seen at the kids place anymore and it was damn near impossible to find one again. Oh how I love the endless rambling thoughts. Lol

[brokensoul93]

I will definitely try that. And I totally agree with your rant lol